Hey all. I already posted this in another sub but it’s another day with new questions haha. So my partner 28 m and I 24 f are in an Enm relationship. Both have no idea what we are doing but we have agreements such as no sleepovers (I know it’s bad i understand why now), use protection, and communicate plans. Recently my partner had 2 sleepovers and 1 date without telling me. One of the sleepovers I knew they were hanging out but he lied to me and said she had left. He came clean and feels bad but now I feel like Enm is ruined for me with this partner. I feel I can’t trust him. I feel like I can’t know he really used protection. Or really wants to be with me and isn’t just using this Enm thing as a way to keep his options open. He admitted he had a crush on her and broke things off voluntarily after telling me as I said I wanted a break from ENM to take any outside pressure off the relationship while I decide what to do. I understand that maybe it’s an issue with communication but maybe he’s just a liar? I don’t know how to figure it out. Am I being a fool by wanting to renegotiate agreements in the future? Thinking about all this makes me feel like we can never be open again because I don’t know if I can trust him. And therefore maybe I should leave. Sorry for the ramble. I’m extremely triggered by this and blindsided. I feel overwhelmed and like I’ve been living in a nightmare the last few days because of my extreme anxiety. Also yes I go to therapy and take meds and I know I need to manage my own emotions. I feel like I have no one to talk to. Idk what to do.