My wife and I have been monogamous for 15 years, 11 of which we’ve been married. We decided to try ENM mutually and at a healthy point in our relationship. No one was pressured by the other, and we aren’t trying to fix something broken. Our sex life in the last year leading up to this decision has been better than ever, which led to more open communication about fantasies and desires, leading us to where we are today. We jumped in head first and are exploring the lifestyle separately and together. We’ve had two swapping experiences with couples, which were a lot of fun and had no negative emotions, just hot, steamy sex and bucket list experiences. Separately, we’ve each had two experiences solo. The first time was ok; we expected some emotions to boil up, but through lots of communication and reconnecting after the fact, it was very positive. Most recently though, we struggled with the second experience for both parties. The sense of grief and fear of losing our partner was palpable. We reconnected and dug deep to feel better about everything, but I’m hesitant to try solo play again. She’s more up for it and, of course, has a lot of possibilities on Feeld. I’m not sure if that imbalance of attention on Feeld affects my jealousy, but that’s also something I’m working on. I don’t know if this is a question or just me venting, but I’m curious to know how others have processed the beginning of opening up their marriage. How long did it take to be confident that you weren’t being replaced with someone else? What did you do to move through that emotion and get to a place where you were happy for your partner to have a really good time with someone other than you?