I think my freeze response is due to growing up in a chaotic household and we moved around lots. Basically nothing was certain and paying attention to the adults and their mood was the only way to get information. And because nothing was every communicated and things changed lots it was hard to do my own thing and plan for things. Fast forward to now and I'm frozen but I think it's a carryover from a successful survival strategy. It's hard to do anything for myself because it didn't used to make sense. But it totally does now. I'm in a different place physically and mentally and everything but I'm still stuck. I'm sure you know how it is. But this is an insight for me and I wanted to share it with others.

Going forward I'm trying to remind myself that I'm safe and in control and that things are stable and secure and I have the skills and power to look after myself and take care of myself. That has brought a sense of welcome calm but no action yet.

I hope you're all doing well out there tonight!