The other day my long distance dom and I were talking about an interview I had coming up, he started getting very intense and telling me that I have to send him examples of my questions before a certain time. I have been holding on by a thread lately, I don’t know if it’s seasonal depression or what but I’m feeling so fragile and I’ve been trying to ignore it but him doubting my ability to ask good questions just hurt and it was kind of the straw that broke the camels back. I had a complete breakdown in my apartment. I texted him saying I know that he will be disappointed in me but I just can’t emotionally handle the critique tonight and I will accept a punishment. He responded saying that I need to respond or we will have a serious problem. I broke down again after that text but found some composure to send the questions before the deadline.

He texted me good luck the next morning but I haven’t heard from him since and it’s been almost 4 days. I’ve sent him texts but no response. I know he’s on a business trip but I’m scared that I fucked it up. I’m just spinning and heartbroken and don’t know what to do.