So I went to two or three play parties with my ex and had a great time. I mostly played with her and I absolutely loved being watched. It was a really good experience, and my partner and I decided to take that plunge last night. The atmosphere was fine and everything was pretty similar to the parties I'd been to before, but this time I felt really uncomfortable. I powered through and had fun last night playing but today I feel really gross and violated, even though I consented to people watching and no one touched me besides my partner and the one other person we played with. I just started crying this morning. I don't know why I'm feeling this, I just feel so gross and bad. Has anyone else had this?? It isn't subdrop or anything like that