So I've noticed something strange when it comes to what turns me on. I'm gay M28 for context. Basically my kinks seem to regulate my life in a way. To give you a few examples:

• some time ago I posted about kinky meditation. I just really craved standing in silence facing a wall. It helped me calm down given new situation of the lockdown and focus inwards after certain big disappointment.

• always had a sports fetish. When younger I wouldn't move at all, I'd spend all my time playing games and watching TV, but as I explored my sexuality I started working out precisely to fulfill my fantasies. Quite fit now.

• chastity. I normally saw it as a humiliation device. But recently I've noticed that I'd crave chastity when wasting too much time on pointless wanking and fantasising. After few days in chastity, I'm more open to talking to people despite my social anxiety.

• I have a semi regular Dom and we're both very socially awkward. We struggle to say what we want and have on our mind and get insecure easily. So when talking to him I will often resort to my regular practices (being a bit aloof). But sometimes I have ideas of writing something different and the idea turns me on a lot. This morning I was really horny and I sent him simple "Good morning, Sir" and he's like "you're such a good boy". Damn, my chastity could barely hold. It was like being vulnerable and risk rejection got me going. And that's true, I've been too focused on achievements and showing my strong side to everyone.

Any thoughts? Does anyone noticed similar pattern with kinks, desires and fantasies corresponding to their non-sexual needs?