I've been out of the community for a while and have just started to play with someone.

After the 2nd time seeing him, shortly after I left I experienced a drop. I forgot how much they sucked. Since then we have discussed aftercare and he has been providing it. When i let him. I find that immediately after we finish playing but before aftercare begins, in that brief moment, my fight or flight response starts to kick in. And I choose flight. I tell him what he wants to hear and try to get out of there as soon as possible. Get in my car and drive home. I can usually make it home before the drop actually begins.

I talked to another sub friend of mine and she told me that I deserved aftercare and she would "come beat me up if I didn't stay and accept it." She meant it in a loving way of course.

The next time I played with him... It was more intense. Enjoyable, but, intense. After we were done he went to the bathroom while i sat on the edge of the bed. I was dizzy and the I could feel the drop coming sooner than normal. I knew I probably couldn't make it home on time but I was determined to try. I wanted to leave. But, I could hear my friend in my head telling me to stay and accept the aftercare. I did. I'm glad I did.

Has anyone else experienced this? The need to run? I know I should probably tell him about this but I'm not even sure how to bring up the topic.

Any thoughts would be appreciated.