Anne here (this is a shared account with my long distance enm bf and daddy dom Allen)-- I've got punishment coming my way for the first time ever this weekend, and I'm having such complex thoughts about it.

I rarely try to get punished for fun. It's happened maybe a time or two, and I'm sure I've been in situations where my dom has invented reasons to punish me for fun before. But for the first time, I've actually made a significant error, put myself in some (small) danger, and inconvenienced my wonderful boyfriend who went to a lot of trouble to try to fix things for me. He gently but firmly said there would be a consequence.

I have no clue what he has in mind. He knows my boundaries and respects my safe words. If he wants me to know in advance, he'll tell me. I'm confident it won't be enjoyable but will be within my limits.

Still, even though I'm very sure I won't like it, I''m looking forward to it. I feel bad about what happened, and I just know some atonement will make me feel better. I'm craving the absolution or security or structure of thid punishment. I'm not sure exactly, but I want it.

My past experiences with funishment have always involved provoking an unpleasant experience knowing it would lead to something erotic or because I wanted attention or because it was a way to initiate a scene. This is totally different.

So far my conclusion is this: Funishment is for attention, punishment is for resolution. What do you think? Thoughts on punishment???