Hi kinky people. I have recently left my first dynamic on kind of bad terms as I got feelings and he didn’t, which ultimately ruined our otherwise long lasting and close friendship. It’s been a little bit and I’m feeling better, but still I feel like I’m almost waiting for the next guy to show up? I’m occupying myself with things that make me feel fulfilled, studies, hobbies, fitness, friends, but still when I go to bed at night all I can think about is building that deep intimate connection with someone. I want a dynamic and relationship so desperately I’m almost afraid I’ll ruin it by overthinking if the opportunity actually does present itself, and I really can’t see myself in a relationship with someone who doesn’t want a dynamic at this point, which makes me nervous cause how do I find someone who wants the same thing? It was an accident the first time.. obviously sex and kinks are natural and healthy, but I can’t help but feel a little frustrated that my brain has seemed to decide that a dynamic is what I need to experience ultimate joy and fulfillment in life. Like why does it have to be so deep? I just want to be happy even when I am not in a dynamic. Does anyone else feel the same? Am I thinking about it all wrong?