I was trying to come up with a label for this kink of mine, but I’m having trouble figuring out how to describe it in less than multiple sentences.

1. The gist is when my domme lets me know that she’s about to go have sex with someone (like, literally in the next few minutes, hour, or later that night after we will not be talking for the rest of the evening). Knowing that she’s having the time of her life and being satisfied is… both a huge turn on and also oddly satisfying. I’m not even jealous - maybe a little envious of the other dude - but not upset at all. I get super happy for her and just want to give her a high five and a hug afterwards (we were online only, so that part wasn’t practical).

2. Sometimes - either later that night or the next day - she might decide to recount some details while having me edge, describing what happened and how she felt during it. Then leave me denied, and order me to bed for the night. I might have been hard all night long, but I would sleep quite contently without even being tempted to touch myself. Like I had been emotionally satisfied, but without the pressure release - basically the exact reverse of a ruined orgasm.

3. I have also had fantasies about being required to tease myself constantly while my mistress is getting laid, and not be allowed to stop until she’s finished and comes back to give me permission to either finish or stop.

Each of these 3 scenarios builds off the previous one, but I’m unclear as to how to describe them to people. One could say that they are part cucking… though not really because I was HER submissive side-piece, and she was with her vanilla SO. Another thought is that it’s a form of voyeurism, albeit indirectly. I can see that with #2 and #3, but it still feels incomplete.

Reverse cucking has a different definition, and INVERSE cucking isn’t well defined at all.

Any ideas?