Hi all! Recently entered a FWB dynamic type situation that I was excited about because it seemed like we wanted similar things out of a dynamic. I’ve always fantasized about having a dynamic in a relationship but always assumed it had to exist only in my head or in books I would read etc because I must be “weird” for wanting this and it must be very rare to want etc. I don’t really want anything particularly complicated, I just really deeply desire a more than just bedroom power dynamic with someone that I have a deep emotional connection with. I am into it in a more deep/intentional way than just having rough sex/calling your partner daddy sometimes etc. Things between me and the guy in this “FWB dynamic” broke off quickly because I realized it’s impossible for me not to want love out of this type of relationship where he was looking for something else. I also want this power dynamic to be there for more than just sex if that makes sense. It’s hard to explain exactly what I’m thinking about but this is very important to me. I’m also very demisexual but when I’m in this type of relationship I become hypersexual, the difference is like night and day. Now that this FWB thing I had ended I’m left asking myself how many people out there really want the same thing as I do? Did I loose the “one chance?” I know amazing things can happen when you communicate openly but I really don’t want to have to “explain/justify” to someone why I am into this type of thing. I would much rather explore it with someone who intuitively is already interested in the same type of thing that I am. I hope I’m making sense. Is this wishful thinking?

Thanks,