Due to circumstances and a toxic relationship/marriage; I was forced to step away from the community. And, I have slowly started to return.

With that being said, I recently started using the Embrace app. And I came across this writing prompt: "How do you reconnect with your Dominance after a break?"

My response: I was just browsing through, and found this prompt.

As a Dominant, whom has been forced to distance, deny, and emotionally separate from, dominance and bdsm in general; it's kind of unsettling. Almost like a distant dream. Or a vaguely familiar memory from long ago.

It's also oddly satisfying. Like waking from a deep slumber. And slowly regaining confidence. Picking up, an implement, and a gentle swoosh, as it swings against the air. "Yes, I remember this. I recall what I did so well."

It also, raises internal questions. Can I still do this? Will I remember how? Do I still have the knowledge and ability to preform at a high level?

It's almost akin, to rediscovering oneself. Or at least, a dormant side. "This time is different. This time, I will do it right." One step at a time. One task, at a time. One command, at a time.

I'm coming home, to an old familiar friend. I have not seen them in ages. And yet, a drink later, and it's as if, we've been only apart for a day.

To my submissive. To my Lady. Please bare with me. As I come home. I will falter. And I will make mistakes. But, they do not define me. And, each day, I feel confidence returning.

I must walk, before I run. But, I am returning to me. And as the fog of war fades, My eyes open, and I am become whole.

So, I ask you. What have been your experiences with reconnecting after stepping away from the lifestyle?