(Joint acct M typing) This had been a fantasy of my subs for a long time. We write out our fantasies to each other long from. A CNC fantasy was one of the first she ever wrote me - and it had a depth and quality that made me believe it has been on her mind a long time.

Im an experienced Dom - and a big element of our dynamic is making our fantasies real. I have a very real love and respect for her - and while the sadist comes out in my during restraint and impact play - I really struggled with the idea of “forcing myself” on her - even as play.

Fortunately our communication is very open and we were able to share our feelings on it all. I waited a couple months- plotting and planning. Part of her deal was she wanted it totally unexpected- out of the blue. Finally one night after an evening out I executed my plan.

I wouldnt say it was perfect - but I think it went well as a first try - and we have done scenes since. Ive grown to enjoy more now Im more comfortable in it - and I understand better her not only her submission in our dynamic- but her need to feel lead and a bit overpowered.