as someone whos never been in a dynamic, people commonly tell me that it took them years to finally get into a dynamic or play partner, but im wondering how do you manage all those years without being in one?

for some personal context/background: when i started to get more actively involved with kink i was told its a great idea to get involved with the community either online, in person, or both. so thats exactly what i did. for a good while i found enjoyment in reading others experiences, learning new things, becoming more educated on many aspects of bdsm, and chatting with all different types of people. but now ive reached a point where ive grown increasingly frustrated that im not in a dynamic. i love reading and learning about peoples dynamics or play partners but grow very envious. i have enjoyed researching and discovering new things i may possibly be into but get upset because i have no way to actually try them. all of my kinks and interest have to do with power exchange and cant really be experienced solo. so im now completely stuck in this waiting game, growing increasingly upset and unsure how to proceed.

so for those who have never had a dynamic or experienced kink with someone and/or solo and its been years, how to do you deal with it? its already been 4 years and im going a bit crazy. im less so looking for words of encouragement that ill find someone someday (which isnt entirely true, i could very well never end up having a dynamic) and more just wanting to hear experiences of others who have gone through similar feelings

thank you!