I rarely if ever cry in life, but sometimes I do, but I always try to hide them. In sex I've cried only 2x in my 37ys. Once was trauma related and other I've been beaten so hard I've cried and lost my voice from screaming. My spouse is asexual, He's okay with me -Having scenes with other people. A friend I love told me that they want to hurt me, to make me cry. I was defiant and said they had to earn my tears. I didnt actually think it would happen. We've had several consenual scenes on several occasions and during sex they hurt me so I had bruises the next 2-3w. Recently during a longer session after a beating on my ass, I strattled him and he started to punch my breasts so hard. It hurt more as it went on and I kept shying away. They decided not to let me resist him and he put my hands behind my back. I knew he wouldn't let me resist or give me a break. I made a choice to accept it. He continued to beat my breasts and to my surprise Something not bad and not good, welled up inside of me It was pure trust but overwhelming, and I started to gently cry. I tried to hide it at first and then I remembered that that's what he had wanted to make me cry So I let the tears come. He continued with my breasts and I decided to maintain eye contact which him giving him what he wanted, which actually brought me to orgasm. It could have been seconds. It could have been minutes, it could have been hours. I have no idea, but he eventually stopped and I cried. I could hear him moaning throughout. I was happy, but I couldn't figure out what I was feeling. I'm trying to figure out what happened Because i've never cried like that before. I wasn't full on sobbing, The tears just came coming and coming.

Has anybody else had this type of feeling this type of crying before? Yes, it hurt alot. I wasn't crying because of pain.It was something else. Does somebody have insight into crying in A concentral bdsm scene with somebody to care about?