Hey folks, I have some doubts regarding this and maybe somebody could help me elaborate and think about it, I’d love to hear some opinions and ideas!

I really like bdsm except for the sm ahahaha I’m not into violence at all and also I don’t like pain, I try to avoid it at all cost but it’s hard to find partners who enjoy playing exploring other stuff… good thing I like shibari and it’s widespread ahahaha

But about the issue, my kink base is feeling the most pleasure with the most minimum pain possible and edging that as much as it can, but I kinda get the arousement around pain and violence, the thing is would never be able do it, so far, with someone I like, love and or care about, only somebody I’m mad at or that I have zero emotional connection, I don’t care about at all

That being said, I actually like seeing men, mostly straight and cis, suffering, begging, being dominated, beaten up and stuff like that, but as a form of revenge for male violence in general ahahaha like a revenge bliss… but it comes from a place of hate and nothing good, so I honestly don’t think would be something I would explore with a partner I actually care about and wanna play and be friends with

So, my question is if me playing with strangers and releasing that vibe would be toxic or still okay, cause I would probably not really care about them, so I wonder about aftercare and stuff like that, which is what has mostly refrained me from doing anything related to that…

I mean, I can do aftercare and I won’t be an asshole but it won’t be the same thing, specially cause I’m really affectionate and caring

I don’t even consider people I hate cause I wouldn’t give them any pleasure of any kind ahahaha

So, what you folks think?