Hey all!

Synopsis: I love making my Mistress happy. I’ll turn down an orgasm to just make Her life easier or know that She’s proud of me. So I don’t know what to say when She asks me to come up with “rewards” for myself.

The full story: So, I [38Msub] am having a problem with a situation brought up by my new Mistress. She’s fairly experienced in D/s, while I’m still fairly new to actually subbing for someone (only a couple of months total under my belt for short-term stints), but She is new to having a 100% online sub. W/we’re using Obedience app to help track daily tasks and habits. This has been very convenient in order to simplify the communications loop and make both of O/our busy lives easier - plus She likes that I generally look for ways be proactive in obeying and submitting rather than Her having to micromanage me (that’s the sentiment that She’s communicated to me).

So now that you’ve got the intro, here’s the problem:

I’m a service sub at heart. She’s a generally a fairly strict pleasure domme with a bit of a sadistic streak. However, She asked me to come up with rewards and values to spend my accumulated points on. But me being a new sub, doesn’t really know what things might be “worth”. Further complicating it is me - being a typical guy - don’t know what I want when someone wants to get me gift. Then to top it off (and this being the most important), I just want to make Her happy. If She is satisfied that I am obeying Her, I live for that smile. If my discomfort or embarrassment at one of Her instructions gets Her wet, it is what really fills my emotional cup. The sexual stuff is very secondary, and acts more as an impetus to do even better rather than something that I feel like I need as “payment”. And that’s really what it comes down to: it feels like I’m buying Her affection or attention. If She wants to torture me a little, I’m happy to obey and just get to spend time with Her. What She wants is the same thing as my desires.

I think W/we might be stuck in an infinite loop of inaction here: both of U/us are feeding off of the other’s desire to do something for the other person. But I don’t want Her to feel like She’s being overly selfish either, which is a concern that She has expressed when referencing dynamics with previous subs.

So I’m stuck here. What do you give to the sub who already has everything?

Help!