| (F22) am relatively new to this dynamic. I was introduced to it last year by a guy I met on Reddit (M39). Immediately I was captivated by him and how well-spoken and engaging he was. Our connection started based on our aligning preferences and fantasies. I'd never clicked so well (albeit online) with someone. We continued chatting and creating more of a dynamic that escalated to exchanging voice memos, photos, and videos on another app. This continued over time...

At one point he causally revealed he was married and I felt a combination of guilt and also a desire to continue. It was more fantasy than anything else. It doesn't help that his distinct look became my imprint of a perfect type. Tall, dark hair, beard and glasses aka the ultimate daddy dom. Eventually, we chatted less and stopped but there was a point where I left Reddit. His account is no longer there. In addition, the 3rd part app we used to use (Wickr) no longer exists. I'm kicking myself for not staying in contact. I miss him so much and there's no way to reconnect. I guess I'm in my feelings but if anyone has any advice l'd appreciate it.