Hi team I have always been interested in bdsm, bondage, cnc play, but I have never had the opportunity to play with someone.

I have been sort of letting my partner know more about what turns me on lately. We have had a dead bedroom before and part of it is a lack of communication on my part. I have a tickle fetish, he knows im into tickling but does not know the extent. I have asked him to tickle me before but i felt so awkward about it because he just kind of scratched around on my body really fast.

Part of tickling to me is the power exchange, the tension, the out of control feeling.

I bought a set of under mattress 4 pt restraints and have asked him a few times to set them up. I guess i have asked him this as a way of making sure he's okay with it. Like if he sets it up for us then i really know he's not weirded out by it.

I want him to research into bdsm and doing scenes, especially where he is the dominant. I guess this is where it's hard for me to communicate. I want him to be able to do it on his own, not me walk him through it mostly because I'm a bit embarrassed to talk about it with him. Any suggestions for overcoming this sort of shame/embarrasment? There is no shame in bdsm at all, im just a little shy sexually and it's hard for me to talk about sex at all. The words make me uncomfortable. I just wish he would take charge and offer to tie me up and tease me and stuff but i know i can't expect that without communicating..

Any advice is welcome, please be nice