I'd like help figuring out if my kink has a name or, better yet, a community. I'm interested in the humiliation of becoming more, not less, masculine. I am interested in the opposite of sissification. I want a sadistic dom to ruin me by programming me to lose my feminine traits.

Allow me to explain.

I'm AMAB. I'm not super fem, but I'm fem enough that I get guys interested in me who court me in traditionally masculine ways, which I like. As a psychological masochist, I'm interested in being humiliated through masculinization; in other words, the erasure of my "feminine" behaviors. Like the man who is sissified is cut off from the sort of women he desires, who now pass him up for what he considers alpha males, my preferred men will no longer see me, preferring more feminine guys.

Part of the desire, for me, is also to be employed, preferably by the dom, in manual labor, that way I can better serve him.

I'd just like a dom to oversee the transformation maybe as a personal trainer, mad scientist, hypnotist, psychological conditioner, devil on my shoulder, whatever role fits best, and to serve as his subordinate in some capacityas a result.

Is this a thing? Where can I go to find like-minded people? There seems to be such a huge market for sissy stuff. I'm not sure what to even call my stuff.