I have social anxiety (or rather I'm autistic but it results in alot of social anxiety like symptoms) I went to a dungon for the first time yesterday, an intro event for new comers.

I had written ahead and asked if someone could come pick me up at the nearest bus stop (30 meters or so away) just to get the help getting in and they agreed. Noone came though and I was so close to turning around and going home and about to cry out of anxiety. I somehow managed to get myself over there and some others were waiting to get in. Started to calm down a bit, the first volunteer I came across who was probably there to greet us felt quite cold and unfriendly to me but still I somehow managed to keep on going. We were shown around the place and it was amazing and just what I know I crave bieng a part of. Then we were told about the place and rules and stuff witch didn't go really well for me either do to different reasons and we all ware left to chat afterwards. Nowhere in the run of the event someone really tried talking to me (witch I logically understand because ppl gravitate towards ppl who are more outgoing and don't look closed off as I did cuz I was so close to breaking down)

I was so disappointed and anxious and overwhelmed and went home early. I just don't quite know what to do. I just wanna become part of the comunity and make friends and have fun but I don't ever have success Making friends in groups settings become I don't know how to. I feel incredibly lost and don't know If I should go back or if I even have the nerves to cuz it already was so fucking defficult the first time.

I feel just as much out in deep waters when it comes to munches or even more so because the setting is so casual and often quite loud.

Any advice or should I just give up?

Sorry if it all was a mess to read but im just so frustrated.