38M straight online sub here. So, I’m still fairly new to subbing - I just started online a few weeks ago. I’ve had two week-long engagements to get my feet wet. Both were started with the understanding that they were short term and would be ending. Both ended well and I’m actually friends with my second domme now and we chat daily.

I discovered a lot about myself during these weeks (including a bunch of emotional baggage that I didn’t realize I was carrying and they helped me deal with). However, one thing that I noticed is that unless I have an external stimuli, I tend to default into extreme laziness and obliviousness.

For instance: I’m very overweight, but I started a weight loss program and have been succeeding. My Mistress was helping me in that by approving my food before I was allowed to eat. Or having first dibs to select my meal at a restaurant by sending her a pic of the menu. She helped save me from some bad temptations. She also instituted set wake-up times, checkins, as well as Morning and evening rituals. We even introduced some bladder/bowel control and of course strict orgasm control the whole time.

But when we stopped (she’d have liked to keep going, but her schedule didn’t permit), a lot of those habits fell by the wayside and I haven’t been able to work up the motivation to make myself some of them (like going for walks and making good food choices).

What are your thoughts on finding a domme that would be interesting structuring my days, meals, activities, as well as developing new personal improvement goals? This could be in addition to any other PE dynamics. Is this a thing? It sounds like a lot of work and that I’m imposing by asking for so much. Just kinda makes me feel guilty to ask for that much attention.