I met my domme while waiting for a disciplinarian and I don't feel like she's either of those. Her idea of spanking is putting me over her lap and squeezing my butt while giving a little pats. She says this is because she likes it so much and she does run her nails over it to scratch me but that's hardly spanking. She's very good at scolding and lecturing, which I said is important to me.

Her big thing is she likes to watch me masturbate because she likes the sounds I make but that's turned out to be most of our sex life and I'd like more.

But it's the spanking that makes me wonder. I'm the last to top from the bottom, but I made it clear what I was looking for when we started and I'm finding that I miss that more and more. I'm kind of at an end and not sure what else to do.