So for some context im a trans man and am somewhat new in my journey so I do for most social and work situations still present as female. So I was using Fetlife for a time and having a mixed bag of interactions. A lot of people ghosted or would agree to meet up then cancel last minute even had several bail as I was on my way to said plans. I did have some lovely chats but only two irl interactions im going to be talking about the latter one.

I had someone talk/ask me to an adult movie theater. I asked about it on the local fet forum and a lot of people wanting to meet me and well I agreed to meet some people id been chatting with wanting to meet the someone id been chatting with who suggested the place for some casual fun. I set the time, limits boundaries, safe words, for the meet up and i was 'ladies' aren't allowed to go in alone without men something about helping prevent prostitution. So I had the guy who asked agreeing to go in with me. I got there early and was waiting outside, First guy shows up but its not the first guy whos supposed to go in with me turns out he fell asleep and missed me. Id already chatted with the guy who was here and everyone else, set up boundaries and limits. Made sure stoplight system was in place, told them no anal, ect.

It's supposed to be $15 entrance fee for couples on weekends but since its early they let us go in for free. Takes a bit of time and well we look around a bit got a fuck ton of movies, tiny wall of sex toys and a few theater rooms we dont know which is which but after some digging since they have a gay and a straight one, along with some private like 3 person rooms, we end up in the straight one. there's a few men standing on the walls two way older than me men in the back jerking it on opposite ends of the seats.

me and the guy sit down and its some bad and i mean bad porno. After some time well top comes off and then so do my bottoms. At this point i am in bra and panties. Guy takes off his pants and boxers and well I started to stroke him. I eventually ditch the panties and he's wearing a condom I shift so my knees are on the bench (think church pews with really thin padding) and i'm facing away from the film screen. he tried fucking me but it doesn't work and he cumms way too soon. height was an issue for most of the night. Soon as i spin around he's on his knees in front of me offering to eat me out and he makes me see stars. I cum and next thing I know there's a guy on my left, this dude is still sitting in front of me people are watching and commenting.

Guy then sits next to me and starts telling the others in the room long as they have a condom they can fuck me. I had already told the man I had others going to fuck me from Fetlife and that was what I wanted, (stupid me figured it was common knowledge if someone says I want X from X place, X from Y place is not the same. I didn't mind strangers watching but hadn't wanted them fucking me) Younger guy who was already jerking it pulls one out and puts it on almost instantly at that point i'm sorta like well i mean he's already done it and I was a out of it still in the post orgasm high so didn't disagree right off the bat so not wanting to be a bitch and say no.

I get in same pose as before and this guy is bigger than guy 1 well shifts me a bit and he gets in and goes to town. It fucking hurt, I don't know why I was plenty wet but it did my glasses almost fell off, I caught them and was holding them in my mouth as im not being given time to put them back on there are two guys standing in front of me kinda pushing dicks at me so I start jerking them off because they keep getting closer I guessed hoping for oral and trying to move me closer, but not asking and I did have my glasses in my mouth preventing it. Meanwhile the guy in question is standing back and just watching not saying anything.

guy 2 is going really hard and rough and it fucking hurts. Well I think he's done based on how he moves well no he wasn't. Slips out and tried to get back in almost pushes into the back door i had to shout wrong hole almost dropping my glasses again. Everyone laughs he says whoopsie/sorry goes back in the right hole. Eventually finishes and he cleans up and leaves I quit jerking the other two off as they finished. I turn back around and guy number one is ready to go again puts a condom on and he goes again. He stops and gives up due to height differences I jerk him to completion all while he's stroking my hair and talking about how nice and good it feels.

He moves to clean up and next thing I know the guy on my left is shoving my bra up/out of the way and someone else is now on my right. They both get closer and put my hands on their dicks before I can say anything. Guy on left starts sucking my nipple. guy on right is trying to go for my neck. I sorta nudge him away so he moves to push bra and go for right nipple. At that point i start jerking them off because I feel smothered and stuck, plus when I took my hand off the guy on the left kept forcing it back. A Really old man (please note he looked at least double my age) is suddenly in front of me shoving fingers in my cunt he's all excited because of how tight, hot and wet i am and he's bragging about it to everyone in the room. he starts eating me out and at some point I had to push him off me because he moved up and started licking my fucking belly button and I said stop and red light loudly several times but rather than him or any of them pull away he moved back to my cunt and guy 1 did nothing.

This goes on until I cum again. Old man gets up and is excitedly telling everyone to fuck me, how hot, tight, wet, I am ect. the guy I went in with is at least telling people to ensure they have a condom. i'm barely coherent due to being overwhelmed I managed to get both guys next to me off so they got up. another one of the guys in the room starts being pressured into trying me out by the old man and the guy says no thanks he just wants to watch. Im trying to calm down and come to my senses. Well someone else gets me to jerk them off in the meanwhile and at this point I noticed someone who looked dead ringer for a violent abusive ex only much taller and still proportional size wise so much much bigger than me (the abusive ex and i were round same height) showed up into the room i'm panicking internally turns out its one of the fet life men and well some time later i put two and two together that his pfp was much much older and his beard wasn't in it at all when the guy i was jerking off finished the look alike well he showed up sat down next to me and sort of made me lay down on the bench which again weird plasticy vinal so its all sweaty from me.

he starts eating me out and i'm out of it at this point cuz he really just sort of pushed me down and went right to town and I'm having flashbacks sort of because again he looked like an ex whod beat me. Next thing I know someones pushing my hand onto their dick and the old man who was licking my belly button is stroking my stomach and busy degrading me and saying lots of awful/weird things kept talking about my cunt and how much better I am than his wife. This goes down/on for a long while until I cum again. then he puts a condom on and let me tell you he's tiny. He shoved me down again since I'd tried getting up and folded my legs back pressing them towards my chest, in a mating press, far as he could without asking, that fucking burned he didn't last very long.

Next thing i know he gets up off me and is trying to help me up and the guy who was refusing to fuck me because he wanted to watch has his phone pointed with the camera/flash on like inches away from the guy who was fucking me/my cunt pretty sure he was filming me or trying to take pics or something. Like I start to sit up and just see a phone between guy 3's legs mere inches away from my cunt. The whole time the first guy just stood there awkwardly watching this.

The camera guy starts murmuring bout how beautiful my pussy was and then by that point i'm decidedly incredibly sore and stressed on the verge of a panic attack most because the first guy did nothing and the other looked so much like a man who would scream at me and beat me. so I get dress and am about to leave when old as fuck belly man stops me and tells me he hopes i'm willing to come back because he'd love to sample me again and how he wishes his wifes pussy was like mine

I don't know what really to do because this was decidedly a bad experience and I'm still hurting afterwards. I don't know what the malfunction is/was but my cunt hurts, my insides hurt, I've got marks on my chest. The only real positive experience was at least condoms were worn. I know at least part of this is my fault I should've actually had someone I know and have meet in person numerous times go with me but I didn't and fucked up so this happened. I really don't know what to do because this was traumatic and while I got off the pain is there and the hurt that I had limits and boundaries in place and my safe words wernt listened to.