Hello, as Femboy recently I have been feeling so sexually lonely and it has caused a build up. Is it bad that I just want a daddy who will use and abuse me ? This exact encounter Is why I joined reddit threads like these. Im looking for something more and a true daddy type. Feel free to let me know your thoughts, but be kind. 😉❤️

Once I had a sexual encounter where this man used me sloppy. He was going through some personal issues at the time which made it better and much more authentic. I could tell he was hurting and I was so happy to be his release from all the stress of a chaotic world.

He took all of me without remorse and it was the best feeling ever. This was the best intercourse I’ve had by far. , I loved how he had no regrets and didn’t care what was going on.

We tried it all that day, and He was very handsome might I add. We had some back end play. As well as oral play (my throat was never the same). And shower fun In the end. And I was naked on a rooftop at one point. “I know hard to believe”. My interracial fantasies didn’t help at all I was so aroused to be playing with a white man. I love them all, but my sexual encounters with white men have been nothing short of amazing.

At one point it was so rough I started to shed tears and yearn. so I tried to run and he pulled me closer making sure every inch of me was used.

He was such a sweet soul with the biggest helping of kink. I loved it. I like to think that in the moment I looked stunning whimpering for mercy with my cute one piece body suit which he so graciously gave me.

But this idea of a man wanting you fully and using you for his own personal pleasure is what makes me melt. I find it more pleasurable than having them ask you 20 times what to do and say and the whole “Is that okay” scenario.

Don’t get me wrong safety and concern is very sexy to a degree and is actually encouraged and enjoyable, but if I have to hold your hand to please me It feels very robotic and not lustful at all.

A man should see the beauty in you and fully own it and do as he pleases. I definitely believe in setting boundaries and focusing on your lover with care and attention, but to be told how to act by your lover is something that I fully disagree with.

Best part of this whole experience was that it hurt several days after so I was forced to wait for any sort of self pleasure like touching myself/using toys. So I took about a week off from any self pleasure which caused build up. And let’s say when I got back to it I never had release so good.

Is this too much to ask for from a lover? And am I valid for wanting a man who shows no control?