Like I said I just need to share with people who might understand.

I love being a Dom. I feel rewarded and accomplished and valued, however:

I can't help but feel frustrated sometimes for a few reasons.

1 when my partner gets too sunny and suddenly can't think straight, it's fun until we need to transition to a new position or we need to be done and then suddenly they can't move or think.

2 they expect you to have an entire plan every single time, good subs don't expect to cum every time (perfectly natural) but they clearly want you to do certain things and that kind tears me away because it's now what feel like my chore to make their every fantasy come true despite my own likely happening.

3 kind goes along with two and that is good lord I would like to not have to think and to be able to kick my feet up. My partner claims to want to serve me and to take care of me but I can't help but feel bad. A massage seems too long. Fellatio to completion seems like a chore.

None of this is a deal breaker at all. I love my partner very much but it does get under my skin and feels like a lot of extra pressure.