I have recently gone through a breakup with my sub - my first serious relationship and breakup ever, not just kinkwise. I wanna slowly dip my toes back into the field, try to forget and move on, but I’m so miserable. I miss engaging in kink so badly and its always been a great healthy outlet for me but now all it does is remind me of him. The thought of anyone else calling me by the titles he used to call me makes me cringe. The thought of carrying out kinky fantasies with other people that I originally developed with him makes me upset. I’m both heartbroken and scared that I won’t be able to connect with someone that deeply again, and also scared that I’ll never be able to engage in kink whatsoever again.

I guess I am just looking for words of encouragement and support. If anyone has gone through anything similar I’d love to hear