I recently had a session with a potential sub and the energy seemed a bit off when I got there. He didn’t seem enthusiastic about it. I tried to make light by trying to small talk, but I didn’t seem right.

We did a few things and one thing he wanted to try was anal. I did my best to make sure he was comfortable and make sure to tell him to communicate what and how he was feeling in the midst of it.

I let him know that I was going to go deeper with the anal foreplay and unfortunately, it went left.

He seemed pretty dismissive as he immediately began to pack his things. He didn’t talk much as I was trying to understand what happened. I left once he collected all his things and said good bye. He just said “Thank you” and shut the door. I soon saw after that he blocked me.

I feel really bad as I kind of was left in the dust. I’ll never know if he's okay. Beforehand, I felt emotiontally down because I thought maybe it was too soon and that I shouldn't be going through with the session. I cheered myself up before hand and gained a sense of reassurance. But this ending feels like it confirmed my worries.

Any help with feeling this sense of regret and sadness?