Recently found out my (now former) long-distance Owner/Daddy had been fostering three (possibly more) online relationships with girls. He and I celebrated our two year anniversary this month in September, and at least one of the girls he’s been talking with has been going on since him and I started chatting.

With the long distance, I never wanted him to feel restricted with the physical aspect I couldn’t give him being so far away. Ive encouraged him to find an in person outlet, but asked that online relationships were limited to casual and anonymous sexting. He never brought them up once and doesn’t understand why I could be upset about his “play partners” as long as he doesn’t consider them submissives.

There were face photos exchanged, nonsexual chatting, and emotional building. He built so much trust with one of the girls that she intended to try and meet him next month. He “cut them off” and sent me the messages he sent to them. The tone of the messages were so gentle, it was clear he cared about not hurting them. These relationships were way past anonymous sexting.

For as much as I tried to be chill and understand he had needs, Im gutted and the relationship is over. This was the first time Ive been collared, worshipped, and genuinely loved a Dom. He collared me, he said he loved me first, almost every step forward was initiated by him. Every time I remember whats happened, its like the wind gets knocked out of me all over again.

Kink betrayal is on another level of intimacy hurt than just a break up… Do you have advice on how to not fall apart as I move forward with my life after years of devotion? Thank you.