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Not sure if this is the right place to ask this (I know for sure it's a good question for therapy when I'm able, lol) but basically -
I did a heavy overstim session for about 4 hours (first 30m super light teasing to build up stimuli, then rest of time heavy back to back vibe dildo use orgasms in general - about 5 solid ones in total before body physically couldn't reach any more from exhaustion) really early this morning, got cleaned up, and fell asleep under weighted blanket (highly reccomend btw lol)
I ended up sleeping for about 10 hours solid (as to be expected), BUT noticed I also had extremely vivid realistic dreams (to where it was hard to tell where reality stopped and dream began), and once I woke up I kept craving nothing but more sleep fading in and out of sleep back to back for a while until it finally evened out to where I now have a mild headache and some brain fog, but otherwise genuinely feel great emotionally feel ready to get up and do things, even though my body feels drained and fogged out.
None of that concerns me in and of itself, but the part that caught my attention is for the last couple of years, I've been dealing with seemingly random 1-week periods of time where I have the exact same thing happen (it even feels physically the exact same - sleep pattern of heavy sleep / craving nothing but sleep / unable to stay awake, brain fog, physicaly weighted deal and all), but also with a heavy dose of depression.
Everything feels the exact same - but a. what I normally physically feel over a week, I felt over the course of 1 day and b. I don't have any of the depression attached (in fact I feel the same as I have for the last few days of a solid 8/10 mentally emotionally), SO I'm wondering if this could be a sign that my "random depression" shutdowns are actually a sign of extreme mental overstimulation / heavy sensory overloads / etc. from my neurodivergency that cause me to crash into a recovery mode of sorts? (I have diagnosed anxiety and heavily suspect ADHD / something adjacent alongside it, so I'm constantly on mental overload by default / have sensory social battery issues / etc.)
I've done overstim before (often over the last few years, lol), but never had one this intense until now never experienced anything else afaik that gives these exact same symptoms down to a T, so I wonder if I struck a common denomenator of Really Big Overstimulation(tm) between session today whats been causing the depression shut-downs for the last few years.
Thoughts?
TL;DR:
Did heavy kinky overstim, had exact same recovery period effects as when I get random mental health shut downs - could this be a sign that those "random" shut downs could actually mental / emotional / social / sensory shut-downs / recovery periods?
Does anyone else experience stuff like this between kink / sex and their ND? (Either this same situation or just general 'aha!' links of things you do / feel in sex = matching traits of your ND somehow)
(Not looking for a ~formal diagnosis~ or anything btw since ik this is a Great conversation to have with a therapist once I'm able - just seeing if anyone else has experienced something similar / what general community thoughts are! :) )
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