(Keep in mind I'm a guy.)
I want to be gangbanged. I need to be gangbanged.
I've written before about my sexual frustrations and how the ideal solution to deal with them is to be gangbanged. Well, we're still in summer during which I'm usually at my horniest. It's probably some combination of the time of year of being in the most motion and of people wearing the least clothes.
In any case gangbangs come easily to my mind right now because sex is really on my mind and I don't have anyone to share with personally. It doesn't help to have other little nonsexual frustrations here and there also, and there isn't too much excitement going on in my life right now.
I long to be surrounded by a number of men who take off my clothes without asking first, leaving me completely naked in their presence: vulnerable, powerless, humiliated. Or perhaps they compel me to make the choice to disrobe myself, and by making my nudity my choice making its consequences that much poignant.
If you know enough about me you know I'm very inexperienced sexually and I've never come close to participating in any gangbang. But from what I've heard I know it can get intense and take a life of its own. This is what I'm looking for. I want and need a cathartic experience. I want my nudity to be not only literal but also symbolic. I want to be stripped of not only my clothing but also my will, my name, my identity, my dignity, my humanity. I want to be reduced to being a sex object that pleases and arouses these men.
As I said, I realize a gangbang often takes a life of its own. As it goes along it becomes more difficult to control. I would have to consider that if at some point I did not wish to participate anymore. Maybe this is the kind of situation to use a safeword. Maybe I just need to let such a situation play out. I'd love to hear some opinions on this.
But hopefully my state of mind would be blank. I would be aware of being a desired sex object and nothing else. Fuck me! I would like to be fucked thoroughly, relentlessly. I want the taste of the men's semen in my mouth. I want their semen marking my slutty body. I want their semen dripping from me. I want semen from each man fucking me in or on my body so that it can negate the legitimacy to make my own. I want these men to wear down and exhaust me completely not only in body but also in mind and soul. Once it's over I want to break down in tears, alone, naked, and bearing all the men's semen. Or if it would arouse the men I would like to cry while I'm getting gangbanged. Or instead of being alone after the gangbang I'd like to have a Daddy type stay behind for some aftercare: a shoulder to cry on, someone to cuddle to, to clean me up, to make love to me the next morning.
Again, I know nothing from actual experience. This probably reads more like a mad fantasy than anything actually meant to happen. I also realize I haven't addressed safe sex. But know this: I don't know how I will do it, but I will be gangbanged in my lifetime, hopefully several times. I will enjoy each time, and more importantly, I will not regret any of those times. I'm putting this out to the universe and expect it to come back to me with erotic vim and ecstasy.