I, 18F, am a switch and in college. At home, my parents are quite strict and have trouble seeing me as anything other than a child. In college, I have a roommate and live in a dorm.

As a dom, I'm able to set the tone and timing for when my roommate and suitemates are gone, and in the past few days when my parents are off my case. But as a sub, it's only increasing the feeling that I'm a bad sub and that I shouldn't seek out a dom because I don't have the means to be good enough. I don't have toys, I touch myself rarely, I'm a virgin, there are people in the same room as me for most hours of the day, and I'm unable to do a lot of pictures and physical punishment.

It tears me up to not be good enough for doms and not be able to do as they ask. I feel terrible every time I have to say no out of necessity, and my inexperience just makes more things uncomfortable for me. I cry a lot of the times I can't do as someone asks, and because of said inexperience I don't know how to handle that. I wish I was able to be better and I don't know how to get myself into the right mindset for being good enough despite my incredibly limiting circumstances.