Edit #1: Hello, everyone. Just wanted to add some updates. Thank you for all of your insight and commentary. I truly appreciate. I would like to apologize as I feel I’ve disrespected those who truly enjoy this dynamic. It was not my intention to dismiss this dynamic in anyway, so I’m very sorry if I’ve offended anyone at all. The reason I’m in this situation is because I agreed/consented to it at first. I’m sorry for confusing everyone but I used the word “appointed” incorrectly. I consented, verbally, to the dynamic of my own free will at first not knowing what being his sex slave meant, which I asked, and that’s when my “owner” sent me a list of rules I had to oboes by (such as: you belong to me, my needs come before yours, no clothes on during certain activities, etc.) and I got nervous about the restrictions so I broke it off. However, I missed him and about two weeks later asked to try again because I felt I had been too hasty in not trying to at least follow through. From all of you asking me my motivation, it was truly because I was blinded by my desire to be with him (I might have anxious attachment) and just hating the fact that I gave up so soon. However, I understand that I’m honestly putting us both in a tight spot and need to communicate with him about my needs otherwise I risk resenting him for something I agreed to and that’s not his fault. Thank you again, everyone.

As the title says, I’m (F) a newly appointed sex slave.

This is new territory for me and I’m really not sure if I’m cut out for it. Namely because I just believe that a sexual/intimate relationship should be loving, caring, and equal. The slave/owner relationship is….well…self explanatory.

There’s a clear power imbalance where one party holds total control of the welfare/wellbeing of the other and that “other” is meant to be the property of the owner and do as the owner pleases. I absolutely understand that this particular dynamic might be desired by others in the bdsm community but I don’t know if this is for me or if it matches my personality.

I’ve been given rules to follow by my “owner/master” but I find myself upset, sad, and generally disgruntled by this dynamic.

Most of my life I have always placed the needs of others before my own, so maybe I’m not truly seeing the upside of having to do that in a casual relationship.

The person who is my “Owner” is kind but I’m not sure I want to submit to them to this degree even though I’d like to try. Can anyone give me advice on how to ease myself into this? Are there any resources?

Im really, really struggling right now and I just need some reassurance or help.

Tl;dr new sex slave needs guidance