Been playing with a submissive since early October, a half dozen enjoyable scenes and a nice sense of exploration and escalation.

I haven't been able to see her since early November, we chat daily but after she got wishy washy on my next proposed date and flaked on our last meetup.

She's got a full time job, is studying for her masters and has close friends with major boundary issues, so I get that kink and D/s isn't a priority. Also the holiday shuffle is it's own thing so I get free time is a precious commodity end of year.

Feeling like I'm getting the brush off or that she's lost focus.

I've typed and deleted a dozen variations of the below message in iMessage without sending:

“I have a hard time expressing vulnerability but I'm feeling two things at once: 

I miss you. 

And also… I'm trying to play it cool and nonchalant till I can see you again. ”

Unsure what to do, I think the best option would be to find a new distraction.

Taking a break from messaging till she initiates the next date meetup.