Hello everyone, around a month ago on July 28th I had an awful experience with BDSM. Being a sub is not new to me, I love being accommodating to extraordinary women. however this time was so different, I guess you can say I'm into BDSM/ femdom, but not the hard-core stuff that causes pain. I was invited over to her friend's house where they have a dungeon. I was not worried about it because I had my safe words and all that. the first half was really lovely involving candle wax oral and stuff of that sort, The second half is where things went off the rails. She asked if I wanted to keep going and wanted to step up I said of course. She and her friend then placed a cock cage on me, I think that's where psychologically things started getting hard for me considering that's a level of submission I've never done. Once we were down in the dungeon they strapped me to this thing where I couldn't move, my arms and legs were tied in place. I figured it would be maybe something like getting lightly whipped or something of that sort. To my terrified surprise, I hear this buzzing noise behind me getting shocked sinisterly on the back, feeling like it lasted for at least 8 seconds. I started blinking my eyes rapidly. That buzzing noise was coming from a neon wand I later learned. Regardless of what you may think regarding neon wands, I WAS DEFINITELY NOT OK WITH THAT !!! I NEVER AGREED TO GETING SHOCKED WHILE BEING TIED UP!!!!!!!!!! I was so lost for words and afraid I couldn't use my safe word, I wanted it to stop but nothing was coming out of my mouth. Both kept going, they struck both of my thighs with bamboo sticks that left a mark for a week, they then also used this sharp hand barbwire thing scrapping my shoulder as I yelled out in agonizing pain, this continued until I finally managed to say my chest felt weird. They then stopped and let me down but only to show me this contraption where they both said they were going to fuck my face. At this point, I was really freaked out and scared. Then they tied me up to this thing where my face and arms were slightly off the ground with my arm far out and I had to hold a very uncomfortable/painful position for a minute. at this point, I don't even know why I was going along with it. I felt trapped and didn't know what to do. It was around the 42-second mark when I felt this liquid come down on my head( which ended up only being water). Either way, I was so freaked out and said my safe word stopping everything. Following that she tried to console me about everything that had happened but it didn't work at all. Then following that experience came to the worst pain of my life. I left the house feeling a slight headache but didn't think much of it. The next day I woke up with a headache but thought it would go away, by the end of that night I was having a full-on Migraine attack( i think...) It had turned into the worst pain I had ever felt! my speech was jumbled, my right arm was tingly and I went into full panic attack mode thinking I was having a stroke. It got so bad to the point where I felt like a zombie. in too much pain to even function normally. Eventually, on that following Monday 3 days after the attack started, I went to Urgent care where the doctor gave me a shot for the pain, and on the second day I went back and they gave me medication for the anxiety. The intense brain-melting pain eventually stopped only to be replaced by lingering tension headaches, brain fog, scary mood swings, depression, and altered mood. today marks 22 days since the intense brain-melting pain and I'm finally starting to feel like myself again slowly. But not fully yet. I feel like something is wrong with me both emotionally and physically. I try telling myself it's just in my head but ill probably go to ER in a few days if I don't start feeling more like myself. I think I had a hemiplegic migraine however I'm terrified to think I may have had a stroke due to the E stim device and all for something I did not agree to. I'm just feeling all types of fucked up and need to vent. I feel like an awful human being and just want to get better. thank you for listening <3. Any advice or self-help tips you can send my way would be greatly appreciated. If I had to compare the experience id say it felt like what id imagine getting raped would feel like. when I told my doctor I nearly broke down crying. I just wish I could take it all back.