Full disclosure I get that this is kind of a specific/dumb question to ask, but I am starting from the foundation.

A couple of things to know about me before I dive into the main question

• Male, Asian, 28
• Been on and off BDSM for a total of 10 years.
• I only play with consenting partner with ground rules, lines drawn out, and with every safety precaution ready.
• Single but have been in enough relationships to know the difference between my needs and my desires.

So I started identifying myself as a sadist since I was 19, a little after joining my college. While very few, I have had the blessing of having a few sub partners that were very consenting and of like mindedness when it came to sadomasochism. However, it never felt enough. Either the pain I was causing wasn't as far as I wanted to take it, or I just never felt satisfied. I mean I enjoyed the entire process of seeing my partner in pain, her reactions to the pain and sensations, having control over her physical being in that moment in time, and how she gets aroused by the pain and restraints. And yet, with that alone I was never fully satisfied.

That said, as I return to the scene of BDSM again, I decided to do some self reflection. So my question for you those that identify as a sadist, are you satisfied with just the pain you cause and their reactions?