So thank you all for the comments on my last post(s), I do still worry that the reality will suck compared to the fantasy, but I also know I will never be truly happy unless I experienced some of my fantasies.

I’m not going to go and just ask my wife for a divorce, even though if she saw this profile she would probably want one. Instead I’m going to sit her down, explain all I think I “need” to experience, and reassure her that I don’t want to “cheat” and it’s not about sex or love, just pure fetish play.

I’ll show her some of the more extreme fetishes I crave, and then it’s up to her, does she want to try it, let me try it alone, or does she want nothing to do with me if I go down that path.

Because it will be such a hard conversation, and I hate upsetting her, I will plan it out and make sure I’ve planned adequate time & so on. She is isolating until the weekend due to Covid, so I will do it when she is free to go out again in case she wants to go to her mums or something after for support.

In all honesty, I’m terrified. There are MASSIVE consequences & I know when she gets upset I will regret it, but in the long run it’s the best way.

Thanks again for your help and advice!