Hey friends! Recently my Master (18M) and I have recently started incorporating a bit of a D/s dynamic in our relationship. It's nothing too crazy, though I'm sure it'll grow as we begin to understand what we can and can't do for one another. Currently we're in a long-distance relationship, though to give the tiny bit of background I can we did know each other irl when we first met and started our relationship. A major issue I have as a person is that I am just a complete mess when it comes to believing in myself. Like, I almost feel bad for my friends for being my friends at times. Throughout our relationship, my own anxieties have prevented me from doing things that would have pleased my Master and prevented me from asking to try things I wanted to try. Admittedly the first half of that may sound bad, but I'm not talking about things that genuinely pushed my boundaries; these are things that I also wanted to try for Him before freezing up and being physically unable to because I was terrified of failing Him. I constantly worry about coming off as annoying or overly needy, and sadly no amount of hearing Him say otherwise has gotten my brain to concede.
Though it's difficult to be without Him, I really want to take this time to better myself and become the best sub I can for Him. This seems like it would be far and away the best change I could make for both of us, but I have no idea how to stop myself from getting so worked up over what I know is nothing. Are there any other subs with similar feelings that can chime in with their thoughts?