I am 18(F) and he is 19(M) it's online since we live in different countries and it hasn't been long since we started talking and I have never felt this much of a connection with anyone before. I find myself craving him which barely ever happens since I have a fear of intimacy. I generally can't talk to men for more than two days because I start to feel like I am doing something wrong.

But this guy is so different. He is on my mind 24/7. I am not a very good person I think, I have depression and I sometimes don't want to get out of my bed and I don't have much discipline in my life. I think I might have undiagnosed ADHD?

Anyway, I have heard many subs say they were very bratty and had no discipline in life and their doms helped them be a better person. But how can I be domme if I am not a better person myself? I really like him and I don't want to mess this up this time but I also feel like he deserves someone who has their shit together.