I've always enjoyed it when my Dom gives me multiple orgasms, and even when I get edged for a long time before being allowed to orgasm. However, sometimes my Dom likes to test my edges and see how far he can take it with me – whether that means edging me for hours or days. Essentially denying my orgasm for days when I'm already at my peak in the middle of a scene.

My previous Dom had always been gentle about this, working me up slowly with shorter periods at a time, but if we exceeded a day of me being denied, I'd feel extremely frustrated, unwanted, and almost disposed of. In fact, it even made me cry. It felt like I was abandoned in a way and that I wasn't good enough to deserve to cum. But he was still very accommodating about it and we didn't try it again since it made me feel bad.

I have since been with a new Dom, and on two occasions he has started playing with me and then suddenly lost interest and decided to either sleep or tell me to finish myself off, saying that denying me in the moment would make me needier and that if I was better behaved I would've got what I want (I wasn't being bratty at all). This again made me feel even worse, unwanted, not good enough, worthless, and like I was just disposable and being used for sex. I felt emotional and sad again.

I feel difficulty in communicating how I feel to my new Dom too.

Does anyone know what this could be about or what I should do?

Thank you.