So I started talking to this guy yesterday and he said he was daddy dom and I confessed I'm a little and we hit it off really well. I even confinded in him about my mental health diagnosis one of which is BPD. Well things got a little escalated and we ended up doing some naughty things over the phone last night. Cue to today and we aren't official (wayyyy too soon for that) and I made a post on bdsmpersonals looking and I told him I did trying to be honest and he freaked out on me. This is what he sent me before he blocked me after I asked him what he wanted me to say cause I truly didn't know what he was confused about...

"Maybe that you're all the same, that I was planning on you doing exactly this, that I saw it coming a mile away, that you're a disgusting excuse of a human who is nowhere, nowhere at all near being ready to form any kind of connection with another human being, that you (like all of you) disgracefully use kink as an escape which ruins it for the few good people left, and that you'll promise to stay away from people, try your darndest to squeeze some ounce of healing and progress out of all the therapy you brag about being in (like you all do), and go fuck yourself?"

Now I'm crying cause all I can repeat in my head is that I'm a disgusting excuse of a human. And I work hard on my mental health diagnosis, I don't understand how after not even 24 hours of talking I'm supposed to be fully committed to someone. Isn't that like a no-no of the kink world? Vetting properly?

Any comfort you could give me would be greatly appreciated. And if I'm in the wrong, please tell me so I learn and won't do it again! Thank you.