I made a post awhile back about how to orgasm because I suspected that I was getting close and stopping before I could actually cum. My main reason being the pleasure would be very short lived, like 5 seconds max, and then be gone. It was only a 3/10 intensity too. And then after I just get completely and utterly disinterested.

I feel bad about this; both from a bdsm partner perspective but also just in a me way. I wish I could derive enjoyment from getting off the way I see so many women on various subs do, because it looks amazing. But even after trying so many tips from my last post it’s still meh at best. And I don’t know what to do.

I tried using my vibe for as long as possible and instead of getting more sensitive or more intense it just kinda goes numb down there to where I don’t feel much of anything which sucks. Because one of my biggest kinks is overstimulation/forced orgasms and knowing I can’t even do that is frustrating as hell.

From a partner perspective, I worry about if/when I do have a person help me get off (as some people suggested talking to people on here) it would end badly because I swear as soon as the pleasure goes away I get so grossed out with the thought of just getting myself off to stuff that I have to close my phone and go get something to eat lol. So I feel bad if I unintentionally ghost people because of my low/short sex drive and it pisses me off because I don’t want to be like this!! I want to know how good it feels and I just don’t and it’s so annoying. Is there anything I can do or am I just wired like this?