It's been a while since I texted her for the last time and I still miss her.

We've been in touch online for about 4-6 months and broke up on april more or less.

She was not my first Domme, but the first one that I really considered such for me. I've always looked for someone to build a long term relationship but never expected to get hooked so much. Everything was perfect... her voice was seductive... her body wasn't perfect, but it was for me... she was sensual... elegant and smart... bossy, big in family... her strong personality was hiding a very "weak" and caring woman, and everyday I loved it always more...

The dynamic was intende to be exclusively D/s, but I felt like she was slowly showing her submissive side with me. It was cute and kinda intimate, through my perspective.

She's always been kinda mysterious, but I know she did a lot of things she was not used to do with anyone else... spontaneously... like having long overnight calls, showing me her family, inviting me to her place etc...

I didn't even noticed It, but I think I wss slowly building a bond someway, and now I feel hooked sometimes.

She started ghosting me in the last period, with stupid excuses... after promise like "whenever you need anything, I'l be there for you, whatever happens". She was REALLY convincing. And I got ghosted... then she blocked me on Fetlife, but kept an open door on Snapchat... that made me crazy, why didn't she block me on snapchat too at that point?

I felt treated as shit and disrespected out of kinks, but I still loved all of the rest. I miss her. I still like her but I did so many steps back... I'd feel bad at the idea of just boosting her ego even more.

It sucks feeling attached to a person that you will never hear about.

I'd want to text her back again, but I'm worried it will be another failure with no answers or, even worst, being considered a molester.

Anye thoughts?