Hey all. This weekend I joined my Sir and another sub of his for a threesome.

I call him Sir but its not a formalized dynamic. We’ve been more kinky friends with benefits (he’s in an open relationship, we live in different cities, we play when we can).

This was my first time meeting the other sub but I’d heard about him from Sir and he and I had chatted a bit online before getting together.

We all hit it off pretty well and had a fun time. I sorta took the “middle” role of the power dynamic. Sometimes both of us subbing, sometimes helping to dom the other guy, sometimes Sir directing the two of us in what we should do to each other.

My question is around how to deal with mixed feelings after the fact. I had a great time. Hit it off with the other sub. But there’s moments of jealousy that I can’t seem to shake. Watching their one-on-one dynamic was entertaining but also I found myself wanting aspects of that for myself too. And an unfounded feeling that I’m being replaced in some way. There’s also an aspect of just intense curiosity about their little shorthands and things that they’ve developed. I’m sure I have those with Sir too. Its just hard to recognize from the inside.

Sir did a good job emphasizing throughout the night that he enjoys both of us for different reasons and that we’re both equally his. And I did talk to him on the phone the morning after to talk through some of the stronger lingering emotions, had a good cry about it too. He tried to emphasize the upsides of the dynamic I have with him, instead of just my fixating on wha they have that we don’t. Hoping to have a sorta debrief chat with with other sub as well, if he’s open to it.

I’m not sure if this is some form of sub drop? The jealous feelings were there a bit beforehand too though, from hearing about some of their solo escapades. Any advice on how to move through feelings like this would be helpful.