Sooo.... I'm on kinda a emotional rollercaster, I'm a lifestyle Dominatrix, that had a full time live in sub. The first year was amazing couldn't ask for a better sub, he listened he cared, he was great.

I had my sub for over 2yrs, we were 24/7 bonded he even moved in when I got a room in sharehouse and eventually moved into my rental with me.

When he moved in we discussed him being in full time chastity, anal only trained, CNC, free use, and potential slave training.

Then it all went to shit, no big life changes, nothing in his personal life, it's like a switch went off and he gave up.

He started breaking small boundaries throwing attitude around, talking back just being a bratt. Now I know that's for some people and I'm not here to yuck peoples yum but that's not for me. He

I tried punishing him, taking away his gaming time, corner time, mild punishments IMO.

He got worse, I had to deny him more and more, we went out to dinner he scratches his name into the table (bare in mind he's a 36yr old). He became defiant, wasn't doing chores helping around the house. Being a hinder instead of a help.

We sat down and had talks multiple times, in his words nothing's wrong, we spoke about his behaviour he can't explain it, he doesn't know why but agrees its outta control and un-excusable.

He started to break my hard limits, was making my chastity cages moldy and stink, not bathing properly. Demanding stuff rather than asking even politely let alone respectfully. It really started to effect my mental health, I went to docs and got put on antidepressants due to home life with the sub. I use my cooking strategies and don't allow my head space to fall into my kink life.

He used to sleep in my bed at my feet noisy nights as it brought comfort to us both.

The sub started scratching stuff into my freshly painted walls, broke my chastity cages. Disrespecting me daily, the dishes weren't being done properly. That was good only daily chore as a sub and housemate. He used to get extra ones if needed, like shoe polishing taking the trash out, doing washing ect... But I always tried to keep it fair, if he completed all his copies before dinner he would get to play playstation. I was trained as a chef so cook every night when we're not getting takeout or going out for dinner.

So after not completing chores properly, he stopped doing his journal (a daily task), stopped being helpful. For example I asked him for 14 meals he wanted to eat for the next few weeks, his answer was "I don't know" litterly couldn't even name one, I told him 12hrs before I wanted a answer so he wasn't put on the spot.

Aswel as scratching into the wall and breaking my stuff he became rude to my friends, chores weren't being done properly if at all. He started stealing jelly beans (his treat for doing well), he started breaking other limits. Talking back calling me names, being a general asshat.

Eventually I had to end the dynamic there was no trust left, no friendship nothing but hurt pain and anguish.

Since then he's been begging for me to accept his submission, no signs of true remorse though. Says his sorry then abuses me because apparently I'm just a bitch, and God knows what else.

He's 36 living of me a 29yr old, if I don't cook he doesn't eat, he can't cook and won't attempt it. If I don't announce I'm having a shower he won't bathe, if I don't buy house stuff he won't have any. He currently has no soap (as I didn't buy him any. Body wash, shampoo or conditioner).

I have highly sensitive excmah on my hands so have to be extremely careful what I use and have to use expensive and hard to find stuff.

I cleaned and scrubbed this house when he moved in whilst he sat on his phone and watched. In order to clean in general I have to wear, elbow length gloves, gloves under gloves as normal gloves flair my hands up, socks, and waterproof shoes.

Imagine Walter white from breaking bad, just to wash dishes or walls.

Anyway to the point he still lives here as he essentially refuses to look for anywhere wise, I cried myself to sleep many times, heavily relying on my support system and spend 99% of my days in my room as I can't look at him without hurting.

I miss having a dynamic so much bit can't even speak to other subs without feeling hurt and betrayed no matter how beautiful kind and caring they are...

I dunno if anyone had advice but it's nice to just be able to vent somewhere hopefully people understand....

Ps, one heartbroken Domme 💔