CW: non explicit mention of SA and sexual media

Like a bunch of us, I have trauma. I've worked through it in therapy and I'm normally in a really stable place. Today, though, my dad whom I'm staying with (and have a rough relationship with) accidentally and carelessly exposed me to some sexual content that triggered all my trauma around past SA and exploitation (as an adult, neither by him). I'm in a "thought about calling in sick to work" kinda place.

I'm a sub leaning switch, and I feel safe to play submissively after I let the dust settle. I dont sub in the middle of feeling "activated, " but afterwards it can actually feel good. But I really, really don't feel like I have the right kind of energy to put toward dominating. And, worst still, I have my first date with a sub I've been so so so excited to build a friendship and possibly more with. Tonight. Normally I'd talk through it with a partner, but telling a new friend something this serious right away seems like poor boundaries. Do I just sit on it and hope that when(/if?) we get to the negotiation state, I'm in a better place, after some time and one or two therapy sessions?