Did I fuck up our connection? Met a dom and I’m new to bdsm but I love the way he speaks to me so I am interested in continuing this. We went on a second date last Saturday.. went for drinks and dancing downtown and had a great time. I got really drunk and he took care of me… in hindsight this was very foolish but he was kind and gentle with me during the time and I was still coherent. One the drive back to our meeting place he starting kissing me at each red light. Soon the kissing turned into touching and long story short, we fucked. It was good but not exactly everything that I was expecting. I felt like he overpromised and then under delivered. After our session we both took a little nap together and then we both went home. Even though I fully consented and wanted him in that moment, I can’t help but feel like I have been robbed of something. Before us having sex, I was still opening up and getting to know him so I was very shy and I feel like the person he had that night was like my alter ego and now I just don’t even know how to feel completely about our whole relationship because I feel like I opened up to him too soon. I’m usually a person that likes to take things slow and although I did consent to it at the time I feel like he did kinda take full advantage of that moment.

After a couple of days I did let him know that this wouldn’t work out for me (but in the back of my head I still kinda want it to) so I cut it off last night but I’ve been thinking of him since. He tried to get me to explain myself but I just told him I didn’t think this lifestyle wasn’t for me. I’ve done some more thinking and I want to give it another try .Should I reach back out to him? If so how?? And what do I say?.. he is also very patient and understanding with me.

-an inexperienced girl interested in being a sub