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I (34F brat/sub) am new to being "out" on the kink scene after a 10 LTR ended 3 months ago.
I started to play with a new Dom about 6 weeks ago. He (57M) and I met up 4 times after talking for a few weeks, once for dinner to see if there was a connection and three times to play. All three times were increasingly amazing. He is very experienced as a Dom and has intentionally taken things slowly. He even opened up to me and asked me to peg him, which I did twice.
We don't communicate all the time, but do text throughout the week. We mainly chat to set our next meet up and discuss how I'm feeling after a session/share pictures and revel in our fun.
He went on a vacation 2 weeks ago out of country. I thought it was a 1 week vacation, so I texted him around the 1 week mark saying I missed our fun and got a read receipt, but no response. Finally (2 weeks after he had last texted me), he texted to say he was back, got a stomach bug, and work was nuts. I responded saying I was sorry he was sick/hoped he felt better soon etc.
That was 5 days ago.
My friends think I'm nuts that he is so stuck on my brain. But I can't stop thinking about him. I thought we were building a fun dynamic, and we were both really starting to open up.
I just don't know what happened (if something's happened??) and I don't know if I should let him respond to me (if he ever will) or if I should reach out and ask what's up. Am I being clingy/unreasonable because this is kind of my first connection since my LTR ended?
Halp.
Edit: Thank you to everyone who commented and shared. Truly very helpful context for me to think through around what he and I had agreed on, and been engaging in.
To answer some questions: 1) No, he is not married or in another partnership.
2) Because I am recently out of an LTR, I was open with him from the beginning that I wanted this to be an open connection
3) from what some of you have described, he is more of a play partner, than a dynamic (also very helpful to me!), however we do tend to text daily between play sessions.
4) also helpful reminders: I am allowed to say what does and doesn't feel good to me, kink or not. And a text takes 30 seconds.
I ended up texting him one last message wishing him a good Saturday and he texted me back today being very apologetic (apologized a few times), and offered an explanation. I thanked him for the communication and told him I had been unhappy with the lack of response. He apologized again and asked to meet up this weekend to talk, which I agreed to.
Don't know how I feel about moving forward again, but I appreciate you all hearing me out and being a sounding board!!
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