I (22NB) am a service sub at my core, but sometimes I wish I wasn't! Bratting, cnc, any type of "fighting back" and being forced into submission just sounds so appealing and makes the submission that much sweeter! I've done a few cnc scenes in the past, but they've mostly been framed in a roleplay sense where I didn't necessarily have to say no, and my lack of a fight could be framed as "you wanted this and can't even say no".

The root of the problems tends to be that I struggle to be creative when I'm horny and submissive 😆 Especially with experienced partners who make me melt with the things they say and do lol and I just want to please them! But I want to try pushing back too because the chase sounds fun! The other problem is that I don't like feeling like I'm being punished, so funishments are the way to go but Idk what that looks like for myself or how to explore it. I'm not sure what good funishments are- that are punishments in their own way but are still enjoyable for me?

What are things I can say or do to try being a brat? How do I get into that mindset? How do I access my creative brain when I'm feeling subby? Am I approaching this all wrong? Any advice would be appreciated 🙏