TW: discussion of cnc (along those lines anyways)

I (18, AFAB) don’t know if this is a kink of mine or if I’m fucked up and should be concerned.. basically I’ve realised that something that really turns me on is coercion, grooming, being taken advantage of, stuff like that… but only where I’m the one being coerced? im not really into “stereotypical” r4pe play that is aggressive / violent, but the idea of an older person gently convincing me to let them touch me and that it’s okay and it’s just a fun game.. that really turns me on. im also a virgin, and the idea of someone manipulating me into taking my virginity sounds good. obviously in all these situations it would be rp and I would consent to it all beforehand. should also mention that ageplay is a kink of mine.

so… should I be concerned about myself? or is this a kink other people share? I haven’t seen much like it and I don’t even know what to call it, which is why I’m coming here for advice